Beautiful Disaster

Beautiful Disaster
by Kelly Clarkson

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right

Oh when I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magical myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight

Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

Almost Here

im typing this as im downloading some stuff from the net... ultra sian.. friday evening and i got nowhere to go and nothing to do (though there's a pile of reading material collecting dust at tt dark corner of my room) and i just realised how slack i am in my studies.. can u imagine, its almost towards the end of my sem and i havnt got down to buying a calculator. how slack is tt?! so there, my new year resolution would most probably be to get a calculator.. or maybe u who's reading now could give it to me as a bday gift! kekekeke...

anyway, i havnt really been updating as u can tell.. just cun get into the mood to write down my daily happenings this past month cos i felt it just defeats the purpose of this blog since tt particular someone is not reading/updating.. so i tot, screw this blog, im not updating anymore. the fact tt im writing this now means i still bear hope, though i cun say i've come to terms with certain things.. and it's actually our anni today, but i guess nothing much to rejoice over..

gah.. watver the above para means.. my downloading has finished.. gtr..but i got to reco this song.. Brian McFadden's duet with Delta Goodrem Almost Here..im addicted to it...

Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here