'Twas A Feeling I Had

something happened today that shook me up from my denial that im not getting any younger. ok, i noe its abit contradictory cos i keep saying im old and everything BUT i've always only referred to my age. wat i fail to realise is that the body and health deteriorate in the process. pretty obvious to everyone else but me. its like im so used to associating my apparent youth (ppl keep telling me i look 18) to my health. cos ive never done much to keep my body fit and healthy. i seldom give much tot to wat i consume, the amt of calorie and fat intake and wat not. and i hardly exercise, apart from walking. and all that could possibly explain wat happened.

i was commuting to work on an overcrowded train as per usual. had to stand since all seats were taken. upon entering the train, i buried my nose in my book. yes, dean koontz again. everything was as per normal before i began to feel some slight discomfort at ang mo kio as more ppl squeezed themselves into the train. so i kept my book and tried to get more air. but the discomfort persisted and breathlessness ensued. when the train reached novena, my vision started to blacken at the perimeters and some invisible hand seemed to turn down the volume on my music player. i started to panick, but all i could do was tightened my grip on the handle to avoid the embarrassment of collapsing. "will get off after novena to get air" was wat i told myself. but novena never came. i did not see, was unable to see the cabin doors opening. all i heard was the intercom announcing the next stop. newton. orchard. somerset. as i began to tell myself im gonna die, my vision brightened abruptly and i could once again make out wat joss stone was singing. i also became aware that most commuters had alighted and i was still standing, gripping onto the handle in cold sweat but very much alive, thank god.

i tell u, that was the longest ride. ever. and a traumatising one too. the repercussion is apparent as i kinda get that breathless feeling whenever the train approaches novena. its like i dunno when it will happen again and its damn scary. i think i seriously need to go for a health checkup soon and watch my diet or do something. and if its not my health, then it could be due to the start of a brand new week. my, tok abt monday blues.

So It Goes

woah, had it been 2 weeks since i've started my new job? cos time seems to be crawling for me. i really wonder why. anyway, i've actually wanted to post sth neither-here-nor-there. but well, since i've got connection, i may as well do a proper one. so. sequential updates on the a-mui concert, kc's bday, bro's rom and my new job so far.

A-Mui Live Concert

well, it wasnt as electrifying as jacky cheung's world tour (obviously) or as meaningful as shooting stars. but i've got to say tt alice lau is really good. great voice, outstanding potrayal. it would have been better if she had sang more of anita mui's songs.

Kacee's 25th Bday

hehe, the 3rd in our group to enter mid 20s status or wat i may call the aging-denial stage. we met at some restaurant for the usual meal-cake-photo celebration. nothing elaborate but i hope she liked the universal voucher we got for her! =D

Brother's ROM

i never tot i'll be saying this, but im beginning to get worried abt my singularity. imagine being the only target to be bombarded with tt dreadful question at new year gatherings. awful. anyway. the proceedings at the ROM didnt go as planned due to weather conditions. it rained. lots of last min changes were made and guests were abit lost on wats happening next. but the couple got married nonetheless. the exchange of wedding vows was particularly touching. i dunno if this happens alot, but the couple actually read off from memory each and every word on the vow. for me, tt's committment.

New Job

i could go on and on abt it but erratic would be one word to sum it up. i dun quite noe when i'll need to work weekends, when i'll be asked to go for a look-see, when staff would be away, and when i'll need to move from one computer to another. but i pretty much enjoy the working hours, shopping during lunchtime, the lax working environment and the freedom of flipping thru books when i get sick of the computer.

oh, update on the japan trip will have to be done much later (if at all) cos there's too many photos to be uploaded and i rather not post sth skimpy like the 1-para malacca trip. (hor, kc?) so i'll update again. soon.

Away

day 2 of being jobless, and im loving it. slacking is actually my fav past time for those who know me. =p slping in late, shopping and having tea in the neighbourhood mall, and packing for the trip. yes, im leaving for japan tonight! and oso, this space will be left un-updated indefinitely. reason being i very seldom go online at home due to slow connection, and tt i foresee my new job wun offer me the luxury of blog surfing as did np. so my frens, thank you for visiting this blog and i promise i'll update whenever i can. =)


// Bro was pressing his clothes last nite and asked if i wanted to watch the Ironman. -_-ll

New Beginnings

tomorrow shall mark the close of a chapter in my life. a long overdue move in my opinion, but not entirely unintended. you pick up where you fall, dust yourself and move on. burying your head in the ground to escape reality wouldnt alter facts.


too much happened in this place, so much so that every corner serves as a reminder of old wounds. but it is also here that i've finally recounciled. and stepping out from this shadow is wat's important.


e corner tt was once melancholic brings a smile to my face now.


nothing stays the same forever. not the courts we used to play at. not the route we take to get home. not the songs you love to sing. not the cats you used to tease.


not you. not me.

Hairy Business

i think im hooked. on my hair. more precisely, cutting my hair. i went for another cut just today at kc's regular hairdresser. tt makes it 3 cuts in less than 2 months. (i used to cut my hair less than 5 times a year) but oh, kc's hairdresser is really good. i love the cut she gave me. not much styling and blowing, easy to manage. i think i've finally found a place tt i can go back to at a regular basis. you have no idea how much courage it takes to entrust your hair to new hairdressers cos either they screw up big time or deliver a fair job. so a shoutout to kc, thanks for recommending! but after a week now, its grown a teeny bit. so im thinking i'll need a trim soon. like before bro's rom on the 27th. speaking of the rom. i never knew im good at decorating and floral arrangement. cos he happily assigned me the job of decorating the entire venue, assuming i'm good enough for the job. -_-ll so after much protest and him coming to his senses, i'll only help to prettify the stairway and cupcake tier. ok, i sense your worry. but for the record, i dun haf a sweet tooth.

Leo & Viv's Wedding Day

i've always knew weddings are a tiring affair, all the planning, the coordination and the physical and emotional stress. but wat i didnt noe is tt it applies not only to the couple and their immediate family, but extends to close frens aka zee mui aka helpers. ya i noe, tt's why its called helpers. -_-ll but i remembered it wasnt this tiring when sis got married. anyway it was quite an exhausting experience, didnt get enough slp due to last min preparations (to sabo the groom) the nite before at the bride's house, having to wake up early the following day, having to follow where the bride goes and helping her change in/out of her gowns.. (yes, 什么都给我看完了*hiakhiak*) and not forgetting the shock i got seeing my fren transform into wat they term a bridezilla. very apt in this case. i wonder if they have a term for the suffering groom who has to placate the bride.. anyhow, shall blog more when pics come in (below pic from wing's blog). cun wait to see them =)

//woah, a couple of months late for this update. the photos came in abit late and there's just too much photos to sieve through for uploading. ok no excuses, im jus plain lazy hor. anyway. pics here.

煙霞 - 容祖兒

煙霞 - 容祖兒

Shocks!

practically jumped out of my skin when i stepped out from the toilet at home early this morning. in my slpy stupor, my senses reacted rather slowly to a presence standing near the washing machine, staring intently at me. when i finally realised, my reaction was extreme, though it was just my mum. nothing to be afraid of i noe cos she looked neither dishevelled or ghastly. but in my defense, she never wakes this early, no one does except for me. so under those circumstances, i had every right to scream and jump back in shock. and for that, mum was kind enough to compensate me with an egg sandwich to bring to work. =D

// very trivial i noe, but how often does your mum make u an egg sandwich?

totally burst my budget for this 2 months. and the worst part is, i'll be out of a job soon. honestly, i dun often spend unnecessarily, but when i do, its pretty crazy. let's list a few.

• grad portrait (at least $200) = its like obligatory? though i can definitely do without it
• grad dinner treat ($70) = err, not necc oso must say necc rite? everyone made an effort to attend lor =p
• malacca trip ($100) = quite an experience, it was like the amazing race. will blog abt it when i get pics
• new specs ($50) = totally unnecc, i have like 7 pairs now.. omg..
• contacts ($70) = cos its slightly cheaper to buy in 3?
• hair cut ($26+$32) = y twice i rather not tok abt it
• anita mui concert ($50) = i need some form of entertainment since i've decided to quit gg to the movies. and her songs are nice and creepy
• lunch treat ($50) = quite necc, cos cun always make uncle pay for mum and me
• holiday trip ($2200 + $600) = this is like the worst, i dun even noe wat got into me to actually sign up for the tour! gd thing is we can pay by instalments
  

now that i've listed it out, it looks abit worrying rite? i noe, i should be very very worried. so from today on, i shall cut down on dinner dates and stick to shopping at chong pang market. or live in complete seclusion altogether.

It Doesn't Seem To Be Dying

"Hong Kong's critically acclaimed leading stage actress, Alice Lau, of I Have A Date With Spring, returns to Singapore with a dramatic brand new production A MUI LIVE! The life story of a superstar is reenacted before your eyes and told through more than 30 hit songs of Cantopop Queen Anita Mui such as 《冰山大火》、《黑夜的豹》、《梦伴》、《妖女》、《坏女孩》、《似水流年》、《梦幻的拥抱》. Alice Lau will also appear on stage in close to 10 different elaborate outfits to dazzle you with her superstar chameleon image."

come May 16 & 17 will be the staging of a production tt's based on the life of the late Anita Mui. and already im looking forward to the show! though im not exactly a big fan of Anita, it seems interesting enough for me to actually buy the tickets. tell me, why do i scrimp and save but splurge on stuff like this?

Graduated!

2 years spent toiling for this day where i get a piece of paper certifying my status as graduand of University of London. 2 whole years, but the experience isnt as gratifying as it should. anyway, some pics taken on my graduation.

funniest shot for the day. sis suggested to pose candidly for the camera, and the result was more than candid i think. haha! and i swear i didnt do that on purpose!

and ya, hurray, i've graduated. *ho-hum*

Quite Enough Already

your constant pre-emption of things to come is wearisome.

your exaggeration of day-to-day incidents is disconcerting.

your attempts at being a fashionista is amusing.

your inconstant engagement is distracting.

quite enough already.. quite enough.

Yewk! Not Ugly Betty~

im finally revealing a post 'surgery' pic of myself (no i didnt get a nosejob, just the braces), which was the reason for this. simply cun smile with it on without feeling awkward so i rather not at all. it was uncomfy initially but i've gotten used to it after 3 weeks now and there's another 2 more yrs to go. but wat im trying hard to do is be indifferent to teases from frens (read : wing!) betty is apparently her fav on-screen character now -_-lll but come to think of it, she's not entirely wrong cos i do look alot scarier on normal days with my nerd specs. hah! okok, forget the braces for awhile now and watch the video below. yet another awesome song by 侧田.

祝君好 - 侧田

Leslie Cheung Memorial Concert

"The fifth anniversary of the death of Leslie Cheung (張國榮) will be marked on 01 April and a press conference was held today by his former manager and good friend, Florence Chan (陳淑芬), to announce a memorial concert titled Miss You Much Leslie <繼續寵愛音樂會> that will be held at the Hong Kong Coliseum on that date. Many big names have been confirmed to perform at the show, including Jacky Cheung (張學友), Deanie Ip (葉德嫻), Tony Leung (梁朝偉), Grasshopper (草蜢), Elisa Chan (陳潔靈), Karen Mok (莫文蔚), Winnie Hsin (辛曉琪), Nnadia Chan (陳松伶), William So (蘇永康), Andy Hui (許志安), Joyce Cheng (鄭欣宜), Sylvia Chang (張艾嘉) and Anthony Wong (黃耀明). All proceeds from ticket sales will be donated to charitable causes."

fuck lah. i SO want to go lor (but obviously cun!!!)

fucking hate my job man. arrgghh~

// tickets are out!! lowest priced at S$30 only~ I WANNA GO!!

Forewarning

forewarning :
next time u see me, pls try not to smile at me. im not taking responsibility for any hurt feelings due to my failure to reciprocate your politeness. just go ahead and assume im being terribly rude.

侧田

命硬 - 侧田

seriously, i would have posted all his videos if i could. man, his songs are so good i hate him for giving me this addiction.

Chinese New Year 2008

so the festive season is over and the repercussions are apparent. bulging tummies, sore throats, burnt pockets (from excessive gambling) and an over supply of mandarin oranges. the oranges are quite a problem for me cos i've never liked peeling fruits. and i have been instructed to eat at least 2 after dinner to clear them before they turn wrinkly. next year, there shall be moderation in the purchase of oranges. anyway. some pics taken during cny.

New Year's eve lunch

CNY Day 02 - taken before relatives and frens arrive!

Goofing ard with Jayden's cap..

another cousin whom i get to see only during CNY. his name's jeremy and possibly the only 2 year old i noe with the loudest voice. and dun u think he's got a very blur look? the just-woke-up blurness? but he learns new words fast, thru repetition. he was calling me 表姐 for countless times i had to teach him a more difficult word to shut him up. haha! but the best thing is, he gives me kisses unreservedly ie without bribery of sweets! needless to say, he's on my fav list too.

then there was the visitation to frens' house. but sth different this year. we spent the entire day at viv's place playing wii till our arms ache. next time we shd do abit of warm up first i think. and another major difference this year is that we didnt gamble at all! no mahjong, no dai dee, no ban luck! guess we were probably too occupied with playing wii and planning viv's wedding. am looking fwd to her wedding on 15 march. =) and oso wii again this sat! =D

2008 Bday Celebration

thank you dears, for the birthday present! =D though the celebration wasnt as happening as last year, it was still very sweet! and to my family and frens who remembered, thank you too!

2007 X'Mas Celebration

long overdue post on x'mas. and some pics of vivien's lovely home! i like the chandelier alot!

On Making A Difference

seeing that i'll be attaining mid 20s status (oh the anguish!) in a few days, i think its abt time i set out some changes to:

a) make myself a better person
b) alter my current stagnancy and
c) save the earth

i noe that in a previous entry i said i'll reflect on year 2007, but wat the heck, 2007 is over and done with. if there's anything worth mentioning its that im left wishing time would move abit slower. ok, back to the topic. my resolutions.

• land myself a REAL job. one that keeps me fully occupied with work and one that requires lots and lots of overtime. fat paycheck included pls.
• be kind to children. ALL children.
• be bothered abt things that concern ppl who are dear to me. things like their bdays, work, mental and physical health.
• keep up with current affairs. buying sat papers for the recruit section doesnt count. watching half of the 9.30 evening news on mon while waiting for Heroes to start doesnt count either.
• eat more fruits with vitamin C. my perpetual cold and need for tissue is killing the trees.
• find activities to bring some energy into my life. going for a 草蜢 concert will do for someone who could scream along even by watching them on dvd.
• read extensively. magazines, biographies, novels, classics, etc. resolving to read everything by dean koontz isnt enough.
• find a male slave (sex not necessary). bringing joy to myself qualifies for (a) i think.
• surround myself with positive tots and ppl. like how eating cheesy/creamy pasta will not go to the thighs. instead, satisfying a craving brought abt by mood swings makes one a happier person. and laughing burns calories.
• pick up new skills. like cooking and first aid. yes, in that sequence.

so there. after completing this list, im pretty sure i'll be able to keep them. well, at least one of them.

Jacky Cheung World Tour Encore 2008

have been looking forward to this since i got my tickets. i had wanted to hear more of him after having went for his last concert in july. (i think that was wat sparked my craze for canto oldies to the point of no return. hah.) but as i was telling xf, i had a nagging feeling that this time round he would be singing more mandarin songs, which was the case, much to my disappointment. and unlike the last time, he conversed with the audience in mandarin too. though i love everything abt the man (ok, except his supposedly popular hit 吻别), the jokes would have been funnier in cantonese. and another major major disappointment for me was that he didnt sing 李香兰! me and my fren were so looking forward to hearing it live again lor :( but ok lah, he compensated it with other songs like 遥远的她，月半弯，蓝雨，离开以后, 只想一生跟你走 which i so love too.

and as told by the man himself, in his 23 year career, he's released over 70 albums, sung over 1000 songs and held over 500 concerts. some statistics there huh? its little wonder why he's considered the god of songs. but, i quote, even though he's hailed as the god, he's just human. cos towards the end of his 2nd last song, his voice cracked (but only slightly!) though a tad embarrassing, he was still able to make a joke out of it. but you couldnt really fault him lah, it was the 93rd concert of his world tour, even God himself would have been exhausted. and as expected, he ended the concert with 祝福. although the concert lasted for abt 4hrs, i was surprised it was ending already. somehow, it would have been more complete with 李香兰. sigh.