Shooting Stars

Friday evening was sth new. i went for a musical with someone cantonese, and quite an expert in canto oldies too. anyway, the musical was staged entirely in cantonese, and it was a really good show. the actors were great and the songs were awesome. some were even delivered like it was a concert. and yes, tt includes the actor running down-stage to shake hands with the audience, along with security to hoist off delirious fans. totally amusing.

i would think the team banked heavily on the names of the 2 great singers to draw a crowd. and clearly it did. most of the audience were in their 30s - 50s, who like me, were drawn by their songs. but at the end of the show, despite the glitz and all, a message was brought across. i guess i can never listen to leslie cheung's 追 the same way i had before. tt particular scene of him sinking into depression and with each word of the song affected me somehow. *emo emo*

all in all, i enjoyed the performance thoroughly and am hoping that they'll bring more of such shows to s'pore. but for now, i gotta go google for the awesomely nice songs sung during the show.

軟硬 Long Time No See

wahahaha! i almost died laughing after having watched this! esp the individual dance highlight, tt kot guy is hilarious!

Intensely

"The pain is so intense because the joy was so intense."


How true.


Being robbed of the joy pains.


But sometime, somewhere, somehow, the pain will cease...


... for joy and hope to come through.

Oh The Drama!

the past few days have been an emotional roller coaster ride for me. ya, things arent exactly going well. im keeping my fingers crossed at the moment, that the worst has come and GONE, and that better things WILL come my way. (say, my bonus? hehe.) im jus glad that i was out with frens after the news was delivered, helping me to take my mind off the dreaded fact/decision to be made. ya, in times like these, frens, abit of mahjong, food and laughter helps. thanks, pals. =)

was at northpoint for lunch on sat and saw someone who i've not seen for ages. (and there you go thinking nothing interesting could ever happen in plain ol' northpoint.) would have missed her completely if mum hadnt pointed out to me. funny that mum would say she's the xian qi liang mu fren i haf, and that she was actually quoting me. i dun rem saying that at all, to me, she's just hoonie. i would have smiled or waved, and things might somehow develope. but well, i guess its all fate.

anyway, anyone noe the titles of the songs here?

okayyy, just trying my luck.

//The 3rd song is 誰可改變 by Alan Tam.

Oh Holly!

guess wat came in today?

muahahah!


i was positively ecstatic abt receiving the posters since the day i won the bid, but the t-shirt threw me off completely. thanks fren, for the somewhat pleasant surprise. though i think u wouldnt be expecting the gesture to be returned (soon or at all), too short a notice to be in time for ur bday. hah!

// i bought a magnet the other day at suntec. tell me, y am i spending so much money on her?

Life Expectancy

despite my scepticism abt the possibility in the miraculous development of a superhuman reading speed, a miracle has indeed occured.


not to sound boastful or inflate this 'miracle', i have finished reading a 400 odd paged hardback by dean koontz. within 4 days. tts fast, by my standards. hmm, i might get to complete a third of wat i hope if i keep this pace.


and if you're a book buff and have not read any of his books yet, i recommend that u start now. though his works are mainly thrillers, i was laughing out loud while reading. no, not at the tragic and often gruesome end of the psychopath's victims (im not perverse in that sense) but at the dark humour he slips in almost habitually.


as u can tell, im not really good at giving a book review, and i shall not attempt any further. just go grab his books from the stores, write a review on it on facebook and expect a tinkle from me soon. *winks*

The Path To Seam-Stress Status

finally, after 5 lessons of learning dressmaking.


I AM A SEAMSTRESS!


as in seam-stress. stressing over seams.


well, the material for my skirt is actually quite delicate. as in if someone were to rip it off with brute force (heaven forbid), it'll come off before you could mouth the first letter of any protest or even a simple "ah!"


ok, so it isnt the material but my so-called tailoring skills. or perhaps the fact that i've machined, unpicked, machined and unpicked the seams that made it so... tearable (not that i've actually tried tearing).


and although the product isnt exactly tailored quality as its meant to be, the whole process is actually quite rewarding. i've learned the virtue of self-control cos slamming and cursing at the sewing machine wun do much good. and oh yes, the wonders of a stitch unpicker! i seriously doubt i would be still sane if not for it, considering the number of times i had to redo everything.


so there, my first piece of tearable wearable skirt. far from perfect, but still wearable.

next up : wrap skirt.


// a bit ironical, for someone who dun often wear skirts, i need to make not 1, but 2 of it!

The Final Goodbye

Sooner Than Expected

oh my, seems that i wun be able to 'devour' his other books after all.


unless i develope an unhumanly reading speed overnight to finish 19 600 odd paged novels within a month.


not quite possible.


on a separate note, thanks to a fren for sending this song to me. actually prefer this to jacky cheung's version. recently, im into OLD canto songs with the likes of sam hui, alan tam and george lam for reasons unknown. maybe its age. but this song he sent definitely reveals his age, not mine. hah.

Updates

random updates :

currently devouring dean koontz's the face. yes, good books are meant to be devoured, not read. im hoping i get to finish his other books before i eventually leave.

yes, yes, bangkok next week! wee~ shopping! im kinda like doing up a shopping list, which probably wun do any good since i'll just buy watever that comes my way. hah. but a few must buys - tailored suits, nice cheap fabrics, dressing screen, haversack, and yes wei wei, durian chips -_-ll

been watching d. gray-man on tv and youtube recently. didnt realise wat an effect this anime had on me. i was gg omg-omg-omg-omg-omg in the episode where Daisya encountered Tyki and was eventually killed. OH MY GOD! as strange as this might sound, the emotions it triggered were much more apparent than all dramas i've watched thus far. hmm.. this is pretty weird.

my orthodontist probably thinks im mad by now. besides asking (jokingly of cos) if i could keep the mould of my teeth as souvenir, i let out an uncontrollable giggle while he was taking pictures of my teeth. it was beyond embarrassing i tell you. but as i said, it wasnt in my willpower to suppress the urge to laugh. it was just too funny, seeing the reflection of myself on the lens with my mouth pried open to uncanny proportions. hahaha! but i guess i shd really be more concerned abt my first tooth extraction which will probably take place 2 weeks later. (that's only if i garner enough courage to make an appointment) okay, okkkayy, stop being such a chickenshit already.

Paranoia

PARANOID.

that should really be my middle name.

well, frens who noe me should agree cos i can get quite paranoid at times. save the numerous episodes of doubting and misunderstanding, construing sudden interests as hidden agendas, saturday's incident has got to be the most ridiculous by far.

i was at amk cc for my weekly dressmaking class. my first project is a skirt and its beginning to look like one now. hah. shall blog more abt this when i've completed it. anyway, wat happened was i was the first few who reached, and went to the ladies which was down the corridor in a secluded corner. most of the other classrooms were still empty and as it was 7ish then, the whole level looked abit ominous with the lights still off.

no one was inside the toilet when i entered and while i was inside the cubicle, i heard the door open. now the strange thing was, no one walked past to get to the last cubicle next to mine. nor did i hear the tap running. all i heard was this clicking sound gg rhythmically as if someone is playing with a pen while waiting for something or someone. and the disturbing thing was that i heard no such noise before i heard the door open.

i stood frozen and the first thing that came to mind was that SOMEONE could actually be out there waiting to mug his next unsuspecting victim i.e yours truly. and because im such a paranoid, thank you very much, i was able to foresaw his deceit of knocking out his victims before transporting them in a stolen car to a deserted factory to disembowel them and finally decapitating their heads off as trophies, but not without the signature psychopatic laughter and a thundering storm as backdrop.

-____-llll

i noe i noe, very tvb drama. i've been watching far too much of it lah. but at that very moment, i truly believed that someone was actually out there waiting to pounce on me. there wasnt much i could do without my phone with me, so i remained where i was amid the sweltering heat. my best bet was to wait for someone to walk in or that the mugger will get tired of the wait and leave. but after 5 mins, the heat was getting to me and i tot wat the heck. besides, dying from hyperthermia isnt exactly glam.

so i stepped out and..... nothing.

not even a cockroach was seen. but the door was opened alright. probably the cleaner came in to keep the door open with the door stopper and turned on the fan as well, which explains the clicking sound i heard.

-____-llll

still couldnt believe wat a big bozo i was. told my mum all abt it and she laughed her head off. well, guess i can nv be a police detective.

Shamed

ok, i take back wat i said - that my revulsion of children will cease to exist soon.

but one thing's for sure, the dormant volcano has erupted somehow. and im sorry to say that the lil' one who suffered the wrath is none other than my own niece. :(

to sis - sorry for shouting tiu and slamming the car door shut at your daughter. (i made sure she was clear of the door!)

to mum - sorry for storming off to the bus stop without turning back although i heard you call out to me

to nicole - sorry for my lack of tolerance and understanding of your wilful and bratty behaviour

to myself - you ought to be ashamed of all this over-reaction and reflect much on how a piglet could hold more weight in your niece's heart

sigh. whoever said being someone's ah yi was going to be easy?

Yes, I Know

Yes, yet another post on my dahhling nephew

Yes, I'm terribly, terribly fond of him (if you cun already tell)

Yes, I'm not worried abt how my public display of favoritism will affect my dear niece (Bro, coincidentally, has the same tendency towards his nephew)

Yes, I do believe he'll steal quite alot of hearts with those eyes (why, he already has mine)

Yes, I foresee that my revulsion of children (which has laid dormant for quite awhile) will cease to exist comes the day when he could speak the 2 words

Lil' Dino

"Grrrrr! Grrrrr! Grrrrr!"

If pain has an expiry date....

"If pain has an expiry date, mine has expired."

Yes, wounds heal.

But does grief?

4.26 pm :

Release of results on student portal.


Present status :

Drowning my sorrows in a packet of Arnott's Tim Tams chocolate biscuits. Double Coated.

Treasure... Dug

guess wat i saw last friday when i was out shopping with winnie and jeral.



yes. a gorgeous, GORGEOUS canvas dressing screen printed with the ever lovely Audrey Hepburn. the picture here is only for illustration purpose, the actual one i saw had a diff pic of Audrey. i should have, ought to have, would have bought it had it not been its cost and the lack of space in my room.

damn it.

note to self : costs a hefty $189 and could be found in Takashimaya B1.

edit // i just realised i have $100 taka vouchers. hmmm, should i?

D-Day!!

i was told by a fren that our results will be out by this week.

Oh, the anxiety! the trepidation!

(translated : Oh-My-God! Oh-My-F-ing-God!)

I think i need a cliff, or a (more accessible) window to fling myself off when this fateful day dawns upon me.

Would We?

the other day i was at a job interview where i was applying for a marketing position. i was told that i'll be required to do abit of designing and stuff. so they were asking if i had brought the 'works' i've done. and silly me didnt, of cos. was practically hitting myself on my way back home. and when i got home, the first thing i did was search through my trash for a poster i did for YG magazine and a brochure for CO's recruitment drive. ya i noe it doesnt make much diff now but i jus had to take a look at it. so i managed to find the poster, which made me glad i didnt bring it to the interview cos its quite fugly to be frank. as for the brochure, it was in my antique ibm laptop, which is officially pronounced dead as of today. it jus wun start. seriously, where are things when you really need it??

anyway, i found this book from CO as i was digging my trash. something which we came up with in poly year 1, where all members could write their crap in it. and reading through it brought back much memories. memories of the place, the ppl, the things which we did and that i was ever their "芳少" with 4 姨太s, a 丫鬟, and a housekeeper. i found myself laughing out loud at wat were written, esp an entry written by a particular member who signed off as Aaron Kwok, which drew comments like "KANNA SAI", "大便都不如", "aaron kwok 的脚毛还差不多" ok, maybe it aint that funny, but i laughed so hard i almost teared. i could jus picture jess' expression while saying that, and how MS will be rolling his eyes. hah. i guess those first 2 years hadnt been that easily erasable afterall.

and reading further, i came across a short para written in pencil by a very dear friend.

人生就是这样。。有些事不是说能放就放的。。要忘掉一件事和放下一件事。

是这么难的事，但为何人生就必须要经过呢？

人生就是这样。。今天不知明天事。。

也许你今天看到我。。可能明天不再看到我。。

人生的过程，说长不长，说短不短。。

有些人拥有很长的人生过程。。但有些人却拥有很短的人生过程。。

所以要好好把握你现在所拥有的一切。。。

indeed, some pple dun haf the privilege of seeing the years pass by them. many a times i wonder, how would things be had you not left? would i still be complaining while waiting for you to have lunch together? would you still readily onz me for a game of bball in NP? would we still be meeting up for shopping and movies at bugis junction? and would we ever have the chance to travel overseas and explore new horizons together? ....... would we?

i believe that in our lifetime, we would meet that someone who's destined to change our lives drastically in one way or another. for better or worse. i believe i have met mine. but for better or worse? im not sure.

Cupcakes, anyone?

just one of those days where you wake up and go, "hey i wanna bake sth!"

ok, maybe not. i had the recipe with me for ages, jus that i never got down to doing it. so today, mum and i went and bought the ingredients for baking. for over 40 mini cupcakes, $26 is quite ex. but well, its all in the name of some fun i guess.

having not baked anything since sec sch and with some help from mum, the cakes were not half bad i'd say. And apart from the lack of proper equipment, it really does feel like im back in mrs ong's home econs lesson.

for one, i still feel as flustered and kan chiong as before.

Do I Care?

Seriously, do i look like i care about how u're doing?

//this flu and sore throat is getting on my nerves~ thank god its a public holiday tmr..

List of Most Irksome Individuals You Could Encounter On A Public Bus

Fangz' List Of Most Irksome Individuals You Could Encounter On A Public Bus

1. Bawling children
2. Giggling school girls
3. Individuals who reek of ciggies
4. Couples who get a tad too intimate
5. Individuals who reek of a month's dirty laundry
6. Individuals who tok (read: shout) non-stop on their phone
7. Individuals who coughs and sneezes into the back of your head
8. Individuals who have their music (think techno, incomprehensible rap, etc) on loudspeakers
9. Males who sits with their legs wide apart (i think they are mistakenly trying to equate the distance with their size)
10. Individuals who gives dirty looks to any or all of the above
    

Personally, i think individuals who are guilty of point 10 are making a futile display of their dissatisfaction. Yes, im speaking from experience here.

Next time, i think i should just bring an eye mask, ear plugs and air freshener. In my favourite scent of lavender too.

妳是我的寶貝

Cun find the music video to this song :(
anyway, the beginning of the song is almost the same as one of brandy's song.

No More Mahjong

you noe something's quite wrong when u actually agree with your mum to playing a game of 2-person mahjong. -_-ll

and you noe something's pretty wrong when the forfeit of the game is much more than losing a few chips.

and you noe something's gone terribly wrong when you get a head full of pegs! (17 in total!)

ok, no more mahjong for me.

well, at least for the time being.

I Adore

Lazy Sunday Afternoon

you know its one of those days when u jus dun feel like getting out of the house even if you were paid a million bucks. esp when you had a swim the previous day and on top of that, late nite mahjong. so when mum asked me out to compass point with sis and nicole, my immediate response was a firm no. so while i was laying in bed, all ready to fall aslp, little nicole came up to me and asked again.

nicole : ah yee wan go with us?
me : (half aslp) nono, nicole go with popo and mummy ok? ah yee wan to slp.
nicole : but i need you can?
me : (sighs in resignation) okkaayy....

tell me, how to reject a plea like tt?

Breakfast at Tiffany's

after today, i think i have to reflect much on my citizenship. no, im not considering migration or anything of tt sort. its just that having visited (or rather, passed by) Fort Canning Park and National Museum today with xuefang while searching for the Stamford Garden, i was asking myself "where the heck have i been all this while? this part of spore is pretty awesome!" i think i'll definitely visit this place again soon. anyway, i was at this open air cinema thingy organised by the museum for this.

my second outdoor movie actually. the first was Movies at the Padang last year which was all fun. this time, however, the experience was quite different. apart from the fact that there was no Glenn Ong or FD, nor was the place as big as the Padang (obviously), the ppl who attended were, well, atas. while we had brought along chips and canned drinks, they had bread, fruits and wine. in proper wine glasses. but of cos, u need wine glass for wine don't you? hah.

so they were playing Breakfast at Tiffany's which starred my dahhling Audrey Hepburn. and although i might come across as a fan, the only movie i've watched with her in it before today was My Fair Lady. such a shame i noe. but then again, im glad i didnt cos i get to catch it for the first time on the BIG screen. if you've yet to watch it, pls do so. just her wardrobe alone is well worth your time. anyway, here's some pics taken before and after the show.

hah, who would've known im capable of such act-cute poses. hmm, on second tots, i think the company plays a great deal. :p

Rain Clouds?

will it ever?

***************

i swear i jus had the most horrible nitemare this morning. ok, probably the next most. the most most awful one i ever had was abt this bat flying to me and finding its way to my back and INTO my t-shirt. it was so horrifying i woke up screaming and crying.

anyway, this one i jus had was that i failed 3 of my 4 papers and the marks i got were like 6, 8, 9 and 44.

is tt some scary shit or wat?

//omg. check out today's 4D results.

Jacky Cheung World Tour '07

i think there's a thief in the house. the bloody iron is missing and i cun press my clothes.


great.


ok, so a thief wouldnt have possibly stolen my iron i noe, probably a ghost then.


speaking of ghosts and entities, it would be appropriate to say here that Jacky Cheung is indeed, the HEAVENLY king, the GOD of songs, the GOD of mandarin pop... ok, you get the drift.

so i was at "The Year of Jacky Cheung World Tour '07" concert which lasted for abt 4 hrs. he started off with a couple of heart-pumping cantonese songs which made the crowd go wild, then some mandarin songs from his new album. and then a couple of songs which he composed for his daughters and wife and another couple of songs sung by some other artistes. there was also a short musical from the movie Perhaps Love. it ended off with some of his classic mandarin and cantonese songs from way, way back.


even though the threatricals were really not to my liking;


and even though i should have just bought front seat tickets to let off without feeling awkward. come on, the ppl near me were just sitting there like they were in a cinema watching Pride & Prejudice;


and even, even though i had an uncle sitting next to me who just could not shut up and let me enjoy the songs. i noe tt you jus want to sing along but do you really have to make yourself audible above the blasting music and heaven forbid, Jacky's voice? for Christ's sake, save the singing at a karaoke joint!


so even though all tt happened, Jacky Cheung totally made my day when he belted out 李香兰 in cantonese.


standing there.


rite in front of me.


LIVE.


the experience was simply awesome.


nono, it was BEYOND awesome.


i think i havnt screamed so much since infancy. if the entire concert had been performed in cantonese, i think i could have lost my voice at the end of it. and even though he's 46 and has been singing for 23 years, he hasnt lost tt magic in him.


wat, a *ahem* young girl like me screaming for him says it all.

Happy 24th!

Wedding Bells Are Ringing

Congratulations, Mr and Mrs Lai!

yes, the first in the group of us to get hitched. Abit ks dun u think? hahaa.. okok, so im just terribly terribly envious can? *much rolling of the eyes*


but seriously, it does feel abit weird. cos its like just yesterday we were cramming for projects and doing silly stuff together. and wham, she's married today. hmmm, tt sounds abit wrong. i dun mean it as a *ahem* shotgun, wat i mean is tt time passes so fast you can hardly feel it.


sighzz.. i guess its really time to stop being in self denial and accept the fact tt im... 24?

Exams are oo-ver?

exams are like finally over but y am i not excited at all? perhaps its the fear of flunking or passing badly? or the apprehension of wats next for me? or simply bcos im still stuck in tt damned job. its like i have a rain cloud hovering over me when i go for work and all i tok abt is how work sucks. *sighzz*


okok, let's not get too depressed here. ermm, updates on my penang trip soon. very soon i promise.

D.E.A.D

im this --> <-- close to my next (and final) paper.

and im this --><-- close to breaking down.


but the distress im feeling abt my exams couldnt be more than the pain i feel abt going back to work on the 15th.


gah, tok abt irony.

What A Strange World

ok, this is going to be like so nonsensical. but the world does operate in strange ways which baffles me.

#1 - Fanaticism

wat's the word to describe someone who's overly obsessed with their religion?

that was the qns which made me lose slp last nite. (and its just a random qns -_-) the word was just there at the back of my mind! i could even picture the expression of these ppl, but i just, just couldnt conjure the word from my vocab bank. extremist? puritan? grrr!! no!!

and just as i was abt to let it go, the word popped out in my mind. FANATICS! immediately jumped out of bed to check the dictionary and yes! i was rite! mwahahaha!

// isnt it a wonder how things would just refuse to come to you when u're determined to find it, and then finds its way to you when you're abt to give up?

#2 - E.T vs chang 'e

it's crazy how i could randomly come up with these 2 entities when we're toking abt finding tt someone in our lives. "you go find your chang 'e and i'll go find my E.T hor."

and it tickled me to no end when you actually pondered over the possibility of being my E.T. "come on lah, E.T and chang 'e are like living on different planets? there's no connection between the 2!"

and it's insanely coincidental when you pointed out that your initials are exactly E and T. "nooo wayyyy..."

// things dun always happen in the way you plan it to be and it happens to you when u least expect it.

afterthought : i think im coped up at home for too long and studying is making me a bit mad.

Untitled

sorry for the serious lack of updates, too busy "making out" with my notes and books, it's kind of like a love-hate situation now. sighzz. anyway, since its labour day, i shall take a break to update this long forsaken blog. its been so long i almost forgot my log-in id and password!

Caution : Randomness ahead!

my bro gave me this pack of gummies the other day, and im addicted to it already! its soooo pretty and chewing it just makes me smile all silly! ya, i dunno why too!

can you understand why babies could smile even in their sleep? and wat a cheeky smile too!

yeah! i got the jacky cheung concert tickets already! and i totally agree, losing your voice screaming for your idol : priceless.

my virgin attempt at cooking, the real type of cooking lah. pls tell me it looks delicious! (although the taste is still faarr from perfect.. haha) and YC, mine looks so much better than the one we had at chun tin rd rite? =p anyway, do u noe a small packet of branded mozarrella cheese costs abt $4 - $6! madness!

// new album from Michael Buble is out! just bought it today and im loving it!

Doing The Do??

waahahahaa... this is too funny~


Fangzz : sian leh
Fangzz : u off work soon hor
Qi Xi@n : ya lor
Qi Xi@n : yup
Qi Xi@n : cant stand the mud la
Qi Xi@n : i do too much he ask me stop
Qi Xi@n : i ask him do
Qi Xi@n : he unhappy
Qi Xi@n : wtf man
Fangzz : omg
Fangzz : wat were u guys DOING???
Fangzz : waahahaa
Qi Xi@n : this kinda ppl also have
Qi Xi@n : work lar
Qi Xi@n : zzz
Qi Xi@n : always so bian tai 1 u
Fangzz : hahhahahaa
Qi Xi@n : u bian tai
Fangzz : buay tahan... cun stop laughing
Fangzz : waaahahahahahahaa
Qi Xi@n : mad

such conversations totally spice up a boring day at work man!


// yippee! holis tmr!!

Post Prelims

i managed to survive my last paper - international & comparative perspectives, which was THE killer for me.

surprisingly, for a paper which i started prep only 2 days before, i could cough up enough crap to make it 9 pgs. and i didnt even haf time to finish my last point! but as i've said, x pgs of words doesnt mean it would be relevant to wat the qns is asking. hah. as a matter of fact, i think its totally out of point. i was laughing at my ans even while writing. the invigilator must haf tot i was mad.

anyway in celebration of my long awaited detachment from my 35 x 50cm table, i engaged myself in a dvd marathon on friday + sat + sun nite. such a shame my attempts at cajoling sis & winnie to play mahjong with me failed on fri and sat. the itch had to wait till sun noon at connie's place. am already looking forward to this weekend. mahjong again? =D

// i got bought tickets to the jacky cheung concert! $168! omg! think i wasnt in a rite state of mind when YC called. hope i dun regret this. hehe.

Life & Times...

life and times of a last min mugger up...

sadly, my life now revolves around a 35 x 50 cm table and my gallant companions - the notes.

// Jacky Cheung's coming to town for a concert in Jul! Anyone interested??

JANUARY = SHYNESS

saw this at someone's blog.. character analysis based on ur birth month...

JANUARY = SHYNESS


Fun to be with.
Loves to try new things.
Boy/girls LOVE you.
You are very hott.
Secretive.
Difficult to fathom and to be understood.
Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself.
Has reputation.
Easily consoled.
Honest.
Concerned about people's feelings.
Tactful.
Friendly.
Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt.
Witty and sparkly.
Spazzy at times.
Not revengeful.
Forgiving but never forgets.
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally.
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully.
Caring and loving.
Treats others equally.
Strong sense of sympathy.
Wary and sharp.
Judges people through observations.
Hardworking.
No difficulties in studying.**
Loves to be alone.
Always broods about the past and the old friends.
Waits for friends.
Never looks for friends.
Not aggressive unless provoked.
Loves to be loved.
Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

**i SO beg to differ!! revision is gnawing at my soul and mahjong is stripping me of my willpower.... heeeelllppppp~

The Last Goodbye

James Morrison - The Last Goodbye

Got to love this.

// Busy like fcuk these days.... and my exams are coming! =(

Frustration

this frustration is soon driving me to the edge...

Hannibal Lecter

was googling 20 Jan and guess wat.

• In astrology, it is the cusp day between Capricorn and Aquarius. Heavenly bodies located on the cusp of a sign, therefore, are said to possess the attributes of both the sign it is leaving and the sign it is entering. and the same goes for my zodiac. so im really neither here nor there. *sighzz*
• Hannibal Lecter was born on tt same date. though fictitious, it kinda explains the sudden urges to take a bite at Jayden's little feet. very disturbing, i noe.
• Audrey Hepburn died on tt same date. now im thinking its quite a bad idea to have her staring at me when i slp.

and according to wikipedia, a whole lotta crap happened on my birth date too. so wat happened on yours?

Oh God! Im 24!

19 Jan:
eve of my bday and i'd decided to skip class and stay at home for some 'alone' time, watching my dvd and trying to relax with my caviar mask on. but i was getting rather distracted by my phone.

"wats with winnie tonite lah, keep smsing me. getting a bit annoying." i tot aloud while replying her for the last time.

the smses finally stopped and i was concentrating on my show when the doorbell rang. thinking it was my bro who must be lazy to dig for his keys, i pottered to open the door and found a ringing phone at my door step. i listened abit more intently and realised it was a rather badly sung bday song. sensing trouble coming my way, i scooped up the phone and attempted to shut the door. but alas, they were too quick for me.

the silent nite soon erupted into the hissings of spray cans and bursts of screams and laughter past the stroke of midnite.

to my dear frens - coney, jeral, kc, viv and winnie :

• thank you all, for being there with me on my bday and starting off my 24th year with such a big bang.
• thank you all for the huge cake, still cun finish it leh, how?
• thank you all for the lovely presents! i love, love, love the bag. and the very expensive audrey hepburn file!

• thank you all for the well wishes and taking me down memory lane with your cards/letters.

• thank you for stayin up and playing mahjong with me till past 3am! been quite a long while since i've last played.
• thank you for not complaining abt the lack of amenities, my house really not visitor friendly lah. sorry to those who had to slp on the floor! Really sorry!

to keep this short,

HUGE thanks to you gals for planning such a wonderful surprise for me! =D

it was deju vu, really, cos both coney and winnie did the exact same thing for one particular bday, appearing at my door step with spray cans (when i've jus stepped out of the shower!) and just, just in case you gals decide to recycle your ideas again, please DON'T! i don't think my aging heart can take it if you throw me into a pool again!

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20 jan:
met up with dear ol' YC for lunch at mad jack's before i dragged my feet to class with a heavy heart. and it wasnt for long that i decided that heck, may as well leave early since my concentration wasnt on the lecture. so there, found my way to sis place for the bday dinner. and voila, my ayam masak merah!

mum found a fren who helped cooked the dish esp for me, so sweet of her! and she bought me the classic fan which i've wanted for ages!! now i can die a happy girl. =p

and check out the cake! my sis went and place some real mahjong tiles on it. and wanted me to eat those as well. -_-ll i think she could have some serious post natal depression.

so there, my bday ended (almost) perfectly. to YC for tt handmade figurine (made last min as usual), Wei2 for the chic bag, my boss for the bouquet of flowers, XF for the doggie toy, my family for the angpows and dinner, and to frens who remembered my bday, thank you all.

as unwilling as i am to accept the fact, its now official. tt particular old fart has turned 24 as of 20 jan 2007. geez, wat a scary figure. quick, someone pls tell me i still look 18!

Bus 171

if you were to ask me to describe myself, usually i would say im patient. and y so? cos for one, i dun flare up easily while waiting or in queue. and i also enjoy doing all things tt requires a certain amt of patience like piecing together jig-saw puzzles and sorts. so ya, i would think my treshold for waiting is pretty high.


but yesterday's incident stretched tt limit a tad too much it snapped. im not over exaggerating here but i waited for bus service 171 for one hour.


ONE. WHOLE. BLOODY HOUR.


im quite sure im not the only (unfortunate) one who's experienced tt, and perhaps my 1-hour wait is nothing compared to yours but allow me to rant abit here.


my lesson ended at 2200 and i took 184 (usually i take SBS buses) from SIM at 2215 and alighted in front of bukit panjang cc at 2230 to transfer to bus 171 which would take me to yishun.


so i waited,
and waited,
and waited,
and waited....


for ONE WHOLE BLOODY HOUR!!


and guess wat, the first bus reached at 2330 hours and 3 other buses reached at 2337 hours! all empty! (i noe cos i was waiting for my bro to pick me up cos cannot tahan already) im not understanding this at all!


i sure hope the relevant personnel can explain this (im expecting an email from them within 3 days) cos i really dun think the bad weather and traffic has got anything to do with it, the other services were operating normally, so wat the heck is wrong with this particular bus tt goes to yishun?? ya, you might say its my luck, but i think the bus system is totally fucked up. they really should rethink those courtesy campaigns they're (still?) doing and divert tt effort to get the damn buses on time. 15mins interval my foot!


im totally peeved, my day didnt have to end like this! tt 1 hour of distress they've inflicted was unnecessary, cos had they commit themselves in providing some decent and reliable service to us commuters, i would be lying under the blankets in my cosy bed instead of being out in the cold with my blood boiling!


Grrrrrrrr.....



Im swearing off taking bus 171! forever!


// sorry to QX. poor thing, he had to bear with my colorful language then. but gg into the rain wun cool me down lah!

Christina Aguilera - Get Mine, Get Yours

Christina Aguilera - Get Mine, Get Yours / Impossible


Great songs. Listen, you'd like it. =)

// okok, i promise no more videos from now on.. or at least for the next few weeks.

I Dunno What To Think

Too much of a coincidence.

My mind is in a whirl now, don't know what to think.

Ah shit, i shd haf learnt that by now.

"What you don't know, wouldn't hurt you."

W.T.F

I'm the BIGGEST idiot.

EVER!

..... i wan my photos backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!

// ctrl X shd be nullified!! really!


// i managed to find a cd with some of my malacca pics in it.. thank god!

// and besides thanking god, need to thank YC too! he bought this software to help retrieve the pics (but unfortunately, it didnt work) i owe u a meal ya.. :)

Happy Birthday, Nicole!

// in contrast to winnie's bad luck this year, i seem to have much luck - by drawing the 1st prize at my dept's retreat! a $100 voucher which was converted to cash =D certainly hope my luck dun run out so soon!

// a particular old fart is turning 24 soon.. sighzz.. the anxiety and sorrow..

// 3 person i noe said they'd get me a fan for my bday, all on the same day! tok abt coincidences..

// 4 years have passed, and i still wonder y it had to happen to u..

JT - My Love/SexyBack

Justin Timberlake - My Love / SexyBack

man, dun u wish u could move like him?

Happy Birthday, Jayden!

My Firsts

oh my. couple more days and its goodbye 2006 and hello to a brand new year. time is a sneaky little thing isnt it? jus slip u by like tt without u even realising it. or has time somehow stopped for me since...... since whenever. but i have to say that this year has not been a fruitful year for me. seems tt ive got nothing much done, like getting my driving license, my braces, exercise and lose a few more kilos, switch jobs, being diligent in my studies, learn sewing, etc. so u could pretty much guess tt i wun be having any resolutions for 2007. but even though the year hasnt been fruitful, it has been most interesting. there were alot of firsts for me, like :

• turning 23 on 20 jan (i noe its lame but still its a first ok!)
• mugging for the exams (first time since a loongg while)
• saving a cat! i hope its still alive and well as i type
• huge obession over gay blogs, almost half my daily blog reads are pink!
• something broke.. still trying to have it replaced
• quitting my "kok kok" addiction. yes, i can now slp without my "kok kok"
• travelling with the girls to Desaru! it was such fun really
• seeing fireflies and going ga-ga over it
• morphing into a groupie and meeting Glenn Ong and Jean Danker!!
• visiting Hong Kong and cranking up after having eaten the wrong medicine
• encountering some strange guy who thinks he can chat up anyone who takes the same route to work. unfortunately for him, i haf a lousy temper, esp in the mornings
• encountering ppl who sits next to me in class and introducing themselves.... gawd, im really losing my icy image!
• diy-ed some random stuff
• bringing mum on an incentive trip to Malacca
• not studying for my asm test and handing up a blank answer script
• gushing over cheap clothes and shoes found in chong pang market
• developing insatiable cravings for food - toa payoh's hokkien mee, chong pang's soy bean milk, ayam masak merah, 杨枝甘捞, steamed crabs, 咸蛋虾 and the list goes on and on...
• revamping my bedroom
• realising how insignificant i am to my frens
• initiating to shake hands with a kid besides my niece (alright, pick up ur jaws guys) so so here's a pic of the, ahem, priviledged.

wai kei is my cousin's daughter whom i only see during chinese new year. the photo dun do her justice at all cos she has this pair of huge round eyes tt makes her incredibly adorable! and its sooo cute the way she squirmed when my bro and i simultaneously motioned her to come to us like some weirdos who's up to no good. but most importantly, she's well-behaved. and by my standards, tt would be unimaginably well-behaved for u. she doesnt scream and run around like other brats kids. also, unlike some snobs kids who ignore u when u ask for their names, she replies sweetly and in cantonese too! i think all parents should raise their kids up to be like her, tt would certainly make the world a better place (for me at least). no doubts abt it, wai kei is the kind of child i would like to have in the distant future. =)

oh gawd, did i just say tt?

// overheard on a cold, rainy evening.
bro (to nicole) : 你 cold 吗?

X'Mas Gifts

this yr's xmas has been grey. in terms of the dampening weather as well as a particular incident which pretty much broke my heart. i noe tt a choice made is a choice made, but i dun like the distress it has caused. too unexpected and totally unneccessary.

anyway. back to the main topic - x'mas.

this yr i handmade some gifts for my frens and colleagues. its sooo cute i had to post pics of it up here. heehee. as like every year, wei wei and i will make gifts for our other colleagues. Year 2004 we did this incredibly cottony angel. hate, Hate, HATED it! nv did touch cotton wool again after tt. yah, its tt traumatic.

and last year we did xmas trees. it was pretty simple lah so nothing much to tok abt. and this year, we did pegs. cute isnt it?? and ya, there's cotton wool again. -_-lll we had to stick the figurines on top of the cotton wool and then on the pegs. so much more difficult than it sounds. and the second reindeer seems a little pissed that im taking its pic. hahaa.

and for my frens, i did this. credits to TL for the idea on the conversion of the photos.

oh ya, i bought myself a xmas present too! my darling swivel chair! *hugs*

ok, this post is pretty lame.

a post on parties another time. Meanwhile, Happy Happy X'mas, guys!

So Sick

its year end and everyone's clearing their annual leave or taking medical leave. like me.

not the annual leave lah, i've already exhausted all my leave for my last exams. so im only entitled to falling sick, which sucks. my throat is sore and congested with phlegm, and my nose is blocked with mucus. damn, i sound like some wheezing toy everytime i blow my nose. the only good out of this is tt i sound pretty seductive with my low voice. muahahaa. anyway, let's hope i get well before xmas.

so xmas' round the corner but somehow the mood is like so gloomy? probably bcos the year's coming to an end and 2007's approaching (which bloody means im getting a year older soon! urrgghh!) or tt im sick and nothing much could excite me. but having said tt, it really isnt difficult to get me excited. all it takes is a fan or chair or better still, both!

i think the chair will look so cute with my cookie monster plush cushion on it! i noe, i could have just bought it myself, but as a wise-man once said, "if it aint broke, dun buy it." but wise-man,ure leaving me in a state of hankering which perturbs me!

I NEED TO HAVE IT!!

say, do the garung guni men take office chairs?

// bro saw the changes to my room and asked if i need to throw a house-warming party.

// have been playing too much jewel quest on my hp, now im seeing orange-faces with blue eyes.

// its difficult to react correctly when ure sick. canto: mun - ask or smell?

mum: see the workers are still there, blocking traffic.
bro: think they're washing away the oil spill lah.
me: ermm, how come got oil spill? (playing jewel quest)
mum: lei hoei mun lor.
me: i got block nose leh, mun hmm dou.

Hello Audrey!

muahahaha~ it's done, it's done! isnt she gorgeous?? gawd, still can't believe i actually did this! come to think of it, its even more unbelievable tt my mum agreed to the whole idea and dirtied her hands to help me with it. but anyhow, ITS DONE!

and since its rather boring to just show u guys the final pdt, i tot it'll be interesting (and oso bcos this is more interesting than my icp assignment) to conduct a step-by-step guide to get your own bedroom painting. so here goes.

looks simple, isnt it. i tot so too, until i get to the painting part. damn difficult can die. out of everything, i painted only 40%. most of the time i was complaining abt how patchy and uneven the paint was, worrying abt how the hell i was gg to cover the pencil lines, bitching abt how the lines can nv be straight. damn, if uncle kenneth was around, he'll probably give me a tight slap to shut me up. so instead of raving abt the imperfections and how this would turn out shitty, i went and did more constructive things like doing the laundry and vaccuming the floor. =p

we got it done in half a day's time and although it does look a wreck close-up, im really really happy with the final outcome. and i'll like to thank the following peeps, cos w/o them, this wouldnt have been possible (cues: awww~)

• whoever, for uploading tt stunning pic of audrey hepburn;
• uncle kenneth for buying the lovely scarlet paint and providing the tools for painting;
• the ah neh at the printing shop, cos he screwed up the proportion of the pic and hence saving me $40;
• my heavily pregnant sis for gg thru the trouble to help get me the projector from her fren. FOC.

and last but not least, HUGE HUGE thanks to my mum for E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G! i heart you!

My Days Are Numbered

my days are numbered.

not in the sense of oh-im-dying-soon but sth else. you see, my bro went for his training in australia last month and left his car with my mum. oh, the joys of having a car! much more joyous if i actually know how to drive one, but tt's a diff case altogether.

so becos of tt, i have cut down ALOT on transportation for the past month. mum has been ferrying me home from school almost every nite and i get home at 1030 instead of like 1130. and also in cases of emergencies (ie waking up at 830 when im supposed to BE at work already or encounters of nutcases who decides to throw themselves off the mrt track during rush hour), i can still manage to get to work at a decent time. the wonders of a mum + car or conversely, with a bro overseas.

and by far, the most awesome thing is tt the both of us can go for makan and shopping trips according to our (mine mostly) whims and fancies. and becos of this, my expenses for clothes and shoes have almost quadrupled. u will not believe how cheap things are at the markets. and becos its so freaking cheap, the probability of buying increases by almost a half. to illustrate, i bought 2 pairs of heels of the same design in diff colors. totally irrational i noe, but they were only $9.90 each! and on top of tt, i bought 2 dresses which i might n.e.v.e.r wear in this lifetime but i jus had to buy them bcos they looked pretty good on me. hahaa.

i think this insanity has got to stop at some point.

probably 12 dec when my bro returns from australia.

and im not sure if i'll welcome him back with a scowl or smile.

New Paint

got home yesterday and realised my room has been painted with a fresh coat of white. looks so much brighter (and cleaner) now, cun wait to get audrey up in tt cool shade of scarlet. yeah! feeling so hyped up all of a sudden. heheez.

will be going down to queensway after work later to blow up the image and then see wat could be done. only having a vague idea of how to put it up. hmmm, too bad i dun have an ohp, would be so much easier tt way. and i will oso need to buy a new mirror since the old one got tore down yest. might oso need a shoe organiser, curtain accessories and new fan (i wan a classic fan!!) so much changes planned for my room.

but tt dispirited feeling still lingers somehow.

please be gone.