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dear mudpie,

been kinda lazy these few days.... i've got loads to tell u, like the gay blogs, this wonderful snack tt i discovered, treating mum and sis to sushi on sat, my first taste of fondue at haagen daz, this humongous packet of chips i saw, shopping for ur stuff, etc, etc..... loads of stuff... but just too lazy to write an entry on it.... maybe this weekend gua.... right now, i just want to be boring and cynical........

it seems tt we havnt been keeping in contact for quite some time... or so it seems..... emails stopped, seldom see u on msn, the no. of calls are dying.... and i am wondering wat has happened.... maybe the both of us are too busy to keep in contact, or we just dun bother, maybe the feeling has died, or maybe, most possibly, tt im just being paranoid again...... sometimes i wonder if all this will work out the way we want it to be and as much as i'd like to be optimistic and positive towards this, insecurities creep in sometimes... and its devasting to noe that you aint here for me when there are times i need someone to turn to, to share my joy with......... i noe all these could apply to you as well, but its just that i really really hate the situation we have here.... and it seems there's no other way around it..... if i could have one wish fulfilled... i would ask for lots and lots and lots and lots of money so i could fly down to adelaide and get my degree there...

sighzzz....

okok, i hear u screaming

its just a tot, just a tot..................